I'm Facebook friends with a boy from high school. He was the first guy who ever decided that he liked me and it turned out that this was probably a bad idea for him.
He was a nice guy. He played piano or some instrument I can't remember (I know this because I met him in band/choir rehearsals). I thought that was cool. He was always very nice to me and he paid me a lot of attention. Also he was a year older than me which I thought was cool and when you're a freshman in high school boys that are nice to you and pay attention to you earn points (especially if middle school sucked--and it did).
This boy used to see me at school every day and compliment me on how pretty I was, and he liked to read and write which earned A LOT of points with me because, hello, how often do you find a boy who's literate in this day and age? He had this notebook he carried around with him and one day during breakfast he sat with me and read all of this poetry that he'd written about me. It was incredibly sweet.
And despite all of this I just was not interested in him that way. It might sound like I was insane as a 14-year-old who was passing up a perfectly good, perfectly nice boy who wrote me poetry, but I had a few very good reasons for deciding to keep things between us platonic:
Number One: He told me this story about how the year before, he'd punched the glass on the back door of the gym and shattered it completely and the school had to replace the entire door and he got suspended and detention forever. And he was always in detention at that time. I'm not really into troublemakers. I never understood the fascination with bad boys.
Number Two: Despite being well versed in the English language he still relied pretty heavily on slang and ebonics and the phrase "y'know what I'm sayin'?" which drove me up the wall.
Number Three: The cherry on top of all of this was when I asked him what he wanted to do after high school he told me he wanted to be a rapper. And thus my interest was gone completely. Now, don't get me wrong, I want to be a young adult novelist so I don't have any room to tell anyone that their career goal is unachievable (that would've been a huge pot-kettle situation). If he wanted to be a rapper, then by all means he could be a rapper if he was any good--but he was not any good at being a rapper. At all.
Moving on, after I decided to friend-zone this boy, we were at a school function one weekend where we were doing a talent show and I was singing in the choir and we (that being the choir and the three members of band) were standing in front of the stage having some kind of conversation that inevitably led to the subject of boy/girl relationships, as they so often do in high school.
This boy who liked me was incredibly bold, a quality I admired up until this point. That's when, for whatever reason, he decided to admit that he liked me in front of everyone right there.
Social situations are not my thing. Not at all. I am the most quiet, shy, painfully awkward, yet sweet and adorable person you will ever meet. There was a consensus among my classmates in high school about this factoid. Anyway, social situations are bad enough, but putting me on the spot in front of all of my friends was just too much.
And I froze. I didn't say anything. I just looked down at my feet and admired the ugly floor of my gym. I didn't want to say "sorry, I don't like you" in front of everyone, and I didn't want say anything that would give the wrong impression like "oh, that's sweet" or something. I just wanted to dissolve into the floor or turn invisible or disapparte somewhere.
After I successfully showed that I a) not interested and b) too humiliated to even speak by way of my silence, the boy rambled on about how rejected and embarrassed he was. And it was embarrassing for him because everyone proceeded to give him crap about it for the next week or so.
He had been rejected in what seemed to be cold blood by the nice quiet little freshman girl (I wasn't known as Harry Potter Girl until sophomore year). And I felt really bad about it. I honestly did.
But the social anxiety part of my brain was like "You deserve it bitch! Put me on the spot again! I dare you motherfucker!"
After that we didn't hang out anymore and we didn't speak much. He got expelled from school the next year and has since continued his dream of becoming a rapper. He released a mix tape (that he heavily promotes on Facebook) and sometimes posts the lyrics to his songs as his status (which saddens me because he used to have such a way with words and now he's been reduced to nothing more than your run-of-the-mill punchline "Fuck bitches, get money" rappers).
I don't know what life would've been like if I had decided to give him a chance, but looking at how his relationship with his girlfriend down the line was like, I'm quite certain I dodged a bullet. I wasn't envious of her at all. Also, there were certain expectations that I would've had to have met in that relationship and let's just say I would have eaten glass before I decided to put out in high school.
I'm surprised that I had my shit together as a high school student, because I feel like I don't now, but hopefully I'll look back on my days as a 20-year-old and think to myself, "Yeah, I was doing all right."
Fare thee well,
April
Song of the Day: Fifteen by Taylor Swift
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
It's Nice to be Important, But It's More Important to be Nice
Greetings!
I have a lot of social anxiety. I don't know where it developed from considering that the majority of my family seems to be able to thrive in social situations. But me, even in the most comfortable of places like in my house with my family, when I'm with friends that I've known forever, etc., I clam up. I always think of these horrifying scenarios that involve me either putting my foot in my mouth or insulting someone so horribly that they hate me forever.
I think a lot of things in my head, but I don't say them out loud because I know that people don't always interpret things the way that I mean them. In my head I'm incredibly witty, but it happens all to often that people take wit and just assume you're being a jerk and insulting them even if you mean it as a joke.
Basically, I have a filter, because I care about people, I enjoy being considerate, and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings unintentionally or otherwise.
Unfortunately, the majority of people on the planet Earth (or at least the people within a 100 mile radius of my house) don't seem to care as much as I do.
I think people just say things so that they can speak. Maybe they like attention, maybe they don't like silence, maybe they're in love with the sound of their own voice. Whatever the case, I think it's important that people develop a filter and actually consider the people around them and what is going to be coming out of their mouth before they actually say it.
Now I know, "people are too thinned skinned," blah, blah, blah.
I know on some level we have to get over being politically correct and coddling people. Sometimes it is appropriate to tell it like it is and keep it real.
The problem is that 99% of people think it's okay to keep it real 100% of the time and that is how people end up getting their feelings hurt, feeling alienated, or calling their best friend and telling them how much of an asshole you are behind your back.
There has to be some level of respect for other people. And I know, respect is earned, not given, which is totally fair, but people aren't going to be respectful of you if you think it's okay to just serve up character flaws in daily conversation at all times. And if they're disrespectful to you, you're just going to be disrespectful back and someone has to eventually put on their big boy pants and realize that they're just continuing a vicious cycle.
I think I'm a good judge of character and I don't think I purposefully get involved with people who are gossip mongers and drama queens and all that. But sometimes, you end up in situations, whether it be because of work or school or whatever, where these kinds of people have to make long term visits into your life and you have to deal.
Most people think it would be easy to just walk up to these people and say to them "You're all bitches who need to get lives," however, that kind of approach to those kinds of people is like a declaration of war. So, for the entirety of their stay in your life they are going to come after you. You will be the focus of their gossip. You will be the focus of their evil glares. You will receive every backhanded compliment they can think of. And you will do the same to them.
Personally, when confronted with unfavorable people like the aforementioned stereotypes, I smile and nod and just basically ignore them. I'm there, but I'm not really participating. It's like being an extra on Star Trek. Picard is having a serious discussion with Geordi and Wesley about the hull, and I'm the red shirt in the background who presses random buttons to fill the empty space--I am there, but I'm not really there. I'm there because I have to be there. I don't walk up to Picard and say "Yo! This is how I think we should stop the Borg!" because that just gives them an invitation to make me into the minor character in the episode who was really smart but if they'd kept their mouth closed they wouldn't have been the first to be assimilated into the hive.
But I digress.
The moral of the story is: Just because you can say something doesn't mean you should.
Free speech is great, but people should learn to censor themselves.
If someone gets a hair cut and they're like "It's the best haircut I ever got! It makes me feel alive!" and you don't like it and you say "I hate it. It's hideous. They've ruined you." you are basically an evil person. Don't rain on people's parades, Negative Nancy. If someone feels good and thinks they could take on an entire army because their haircut is so boss all it takes is one negative comment to completely ruin someone's day. Don't be that guy. If they don't ask for you opinion don't give it, and if they do say "It's not really my style but I'm glad you're enjoying it." They will know what you mean and you won't be perceived as a dream killer.
Finally, and this is probably the biggest problem when it comes to thinking before you speak and using a mental filter, just stop with all the talking behind people's backs.
If someone bothers you and everything about their existence makes your skin crawl and you want to hit them in the face and every time they speak you just hear nails on a chalk board, smile and nod because you're not going to confront them about how much you hate them. So when they leave the room, just poof them out of your head. Do something you enjoy, because talking shit about them isn't going to make you feel better. It's going to make you feel worse for keeping something you detest on your mind for so long. Read a book. Watch TV. Get a hobby. Cure cancer. There are more productive things you can do than dwell on a person you find nauseating.
Remember: Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people.
If you want to discuss people, be my guest.
I promise it won't kill you to bite your tongue and not say anything every once in a while. It hasn't killed me yet.
Fare thee well,
April x
Currently Reading: The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson (pg. 64 because I'm a slacker)
Song of the Day: You're the Best by Joe Esposito
I have a lot of social anxiety. I don't know where it developed from considering that the majority of my family seems to be able to thrive in social situations. But me, even in the most comfortable of places like in my house with my family, when I'm with friends that I've known forever, etc., I clam up. I always think of these horrifying scenarios that involve me either putting my foot in my mouth or insulting someone so horribly that they hate me forever.
I think a lot of things in my head, but I don't say them out loud because I know that people don't always interpret things the way that I mean them. In my head I'm incredibly witty, but it happens all to often that people take wit and just assume you're being a jerk and insulting them even if you mean it as a joke.
Basically, I have a filter, because I care about people, I enjoy being considerate, and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings unintentionally or otherwise.
Unfortunately, the majority of people on the planet Earth (or at least the people within a 100 mile radius of my house) don't seem to care as much as I do.
I think people just say things so that they can speak. Maybe they like attention, maybe they don't like silence, maybe they're in love with the sound of their own voice. Whatever the case, I think it's important that people develop a filter and actually consider the people around them and what is going to be coming out of their mouth before they actually say it.
Now I know, "people are too thinned skinned," blah, blah, blah.
I know on some level we have to get over being politically correct and coddling people. Sometimes it is appropriate to tell it like it is and keep it real.
The problem is that 99% of people think it's okay to keep it real 100% of the time and that is how people end up getting their feelings hurt, feeling alienated, or calling their best friend and telling them how much of an asshole you are behind your back.
There has to be some level of respect for other people. And I know, respect is earned, not given, which is totally fair, but people aren't going to be respectful of you if you think it's okay to just serve up character flaws in daily conversation at all times. And if they're disrespectful to you, you're just going to be disrespectful back and someone has to eventually put on their big boy pants and realize that they're just continuing a vicious cycle.
I think I'm a good judge of character and I don't think I purposefully get involved with people who are gossip mongers and drama queens and all that. But sometimes, you end up in situations, whether it be because of work or school or whatever, where these kinds of people have to make long term visits into your life and you have to deal.
Most people think it would be easy to just walk up to these people and say to them "You're all bitches who need to get lives," however, that kind of approach to those kinds of people is like a declaration of war. So, for the entirety of their stay in your life they are going to come after you. You will be the focus of their gossip. You will be the focus of their evil glares. You will receive every backhanded compliment they can think of. And you will do the same to them.
Personally, when confronted with unfavorable people like the aforementioned stereotypes, I smile and nod and just basically ignore them. I'm there, but I'm not really participating. It's like being an extra on Star Trek. Picard is having a serious discussion with Geordi and Wesley about the hull, and I'm the red shirt in the background who presses random buttons to fill the empty space--I am there, but I'm not really there. I'm there because I have to be there. I don't walk up to Picard and say "Yo! This is how I think we should stop the Borg!" because that just gives them an invitation to make me into the minor character in the episode who was really smart but if they'd kept their mouth closed they wouldn't have been the first to be assimilated into the hive.
But I digress.
The moral of the story is: Just because you can say something doesn't mean you should.
Free speech is great, but people should learn to censor themselves.
If someone gets a hair cut and they're like "It's the best haircut I ever got! It makes me feel alive!" and you don't like it and you say "I hate it. It's hideous. They've ruined you." you are basically an evil person. Don't rain on people's parades, Negative Nancy. If someone feels good and thinks they could take on an entire army because their haircut is so boss all it takes is one negative comment to completely ruin someone's day. Don't be that guy. If they don't ask for you opinion don't give it, and if they do say "It's not really my style but I'm glad you're enjoying it." They will know what you mean and you won't be perceived as a dream killer.
Finally, and this is probably the biggest problem when it comes to thinking before you speak and using a mental filter, just stop with all the talking behind people's backs.
If someone bothers you and everything about their existence makes your skin crawl and you want to hit them in the face and every time they speak you just hear nails on a chalk board, smile and nod because you're not going to confront them about how much you hate them. So when they leave the room, just poof them out of your head. Do something you enjoy, because talking shit about them isn't going to make you feel better. It's going to make you feel worse for keeping something you detest on your mind for so long. Read a book. Watch TV. Get a hobby. Cure cancer. There are more productive things you can do than dwell on a person you find nauseating.
Remember: Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people.
If you want to discuss people, be my guest.
I promise it won't kill you to bite your tongue and not say anything every once in a while. It hasn't killed me yet.
Fare thee well,
April x
Currently Reading: The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson (pg. 64 because I'm a slacker)
Song of the Day: You're the Best by Joe Esposito
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Welcome to 2012
Greetings!
It's a new year. 2012. Thank goodness.
2011 had to be one of the worst years I've ever lived through, but damn it I lived through it.
I worked at Target, had four panic attacks, struggled through two remedial math courses, was in school all summer, had no money, had to move back home with my grandmother, drove a rapist van that had no shocks, drove a Jeep that got 8 miles to the gallon, failed NaNoWriMo for the second year in a row, watched Harry Potter come to an end, and yet somehow I have managed to come out on the other side into a new year relatively unscathed.
2011 wasn't all bad though. In the beginning I was living on my own. I got to go visit The Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Florida, I spent my birthday having a sleepover with some awesome Wizard Rockers, I actually passed my math classes, I fell in love with 16th century British poetry, and I actually finished writing a book.
Mostly, I can just be thankful that I'm alive, that I'm healthy, and that I have friends and family that are supportive of me and only mildly psychotic.
I resolve to do nothing this year but continue doing what I did last year which was read more, write more, and love more, because somehow practicing all three of these things has managed to help vastly improve the quality of my life.
Writing helps me to get my words out because I don't know how to do it any other way. Reading helps me with writing, but it also teaches me, and spending time with fictional characters is sometimes a lot better than spending it with actual people. And loving more, well, it goes without saying that the world can always use a bit more love, and when I do good I feel good.
This year, I'm going to continue my love/hate relationship with college. I'm going to look into working part-time again (preferably at a place with a desk and a cubicle where I can just do filing and not interact people very often), and I'm going to try to keep looking on the bright side of life, even when things look completely miserable because otherwise I'll go insane.
At this very moment, I'm simply enjoying some time to myself to be away from school and to relax by writing and reading. I also do a fair amount of watching Netflix and sleeping because soon I'll be too bogged down in school to actually enjoy my life properly--stupid math and science courses.
This semester I'll be taking Intro to College Math (after two semesters of algebra which didn't count toward my degree, and neither will this class), Biology: The Cell & DNA with a Lab, Archaeology, and British Literature II. I was also going to be taking a religion course, but it got cancelled so now I'm only taking two classes that I'm even slightly excited about.
In the mean time, I'm not going to think about it, and just read my book while I sip some tea because that's the way life is supposed to go.
Fare thee well,
April x
Currently Reading: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson (pg. 58)
Song of the Day: It's All Coming Back to me Now by Celine Dion
It's a new year. 2012. Thank goodness.
2011 had to be one of the worst years I've ever lived through, but damn it I lived through it.
I worked at Target, had four panic attacks, struggled through two remedial math courses, was in school all summer, had no money, had to move back home with my grandmother, drove a rapist van that had no shocks, drove a Jeep that got 8 miles to the gallon, failed NaNoWriMo for the second year in a row, watched Harry Potter come to an end, and yet somehow I have managed to come out on the other side into a new year relatively unscathed.
2011 wasn't all bad though. In the beginning I was living on my own. I got to go visit The Wizarding World of Harry Potter in Florida, I spent my birthday having a sleepover with some awesome Wizard Rockers, I actually passed my math classes, I fell in love with 16th century British poetry, and I actually finished writing a book.
Mostly, I can just be thankful that I'm alive, that I'm healthy, and that I have friends and family that are supportive of me and only mildly psychotic.
I resolve to do nothing this year but continue doing what I did last year which was read more, write more, and love more, because somehow practicing all three of these things has managed to help vastly improve the quality of my life.
Writing helps me to get my words out because I don't know how to do it any other way. Reading helps me with writing, but it also teaches me, and spending time with fictional characters is sometimes a lot better than spending it with actual people. And loving more, well, it goes without saying that the world can always use a bit more love, and when I do good I feel good.
This year, I'm going to continue my love/hate relationship with college. I'm going to look into working part-time again (preferably at a place with a desk and a cubicle where I can just do filing and not interact people very often), and I'm going to try to keep looking on the bright side of life, even when things look completely miserable because otherwise I'll go insane.
At this very moment, I'm simply enjoying some time to myself to be away from school and to relax by writing and reading. I also do a fair amount of watching Netflix and sleeping because soon I'll be too bogged down in school to actually enjoy my life properly--stupid math and science courses.
This semester I'll be taking Intro to College Math (after two semesters of algebra which didn't count toward my degree, and neither will this class), Biology: The Cell & DNA with a Lab, Archaeology, and British Literature II. I was also going to be taking a religion course, but it got cancelled so now I'm only taking two classes that I'm even slightly excited about.
In the mean time, I'm not going to think about it, and just read my book while I sip some tea because that's the way life is supposed to go.
Fare thee well,
April x
Currently Reading: The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson (pg. 58)
Song of the Day: It's All Coming Back to me Now by Celine Dion
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Road Trip Wednesday: Beating Writer's Block
Greetings!
Writer's Block is my mortal enemy, but at the same time I bow to it.
I'll get to a scene where everything is going smoothly and suddenly, I'll hit a wall. Usually I sit there impatiently, trying to think of something--anything to write down. After about two hours I'll know that I'm suffering from a case of Writer's Block.
I used to get really down when I got Writer's Block. I imagined that anyone who'd actually sat down and written a book didn't suffer from it. Of course, I've now learned that ALL writer's suffer from it and that we all love to procrastinate as well.
But when we've gotten bored of playing Robot Unicorn and Tertris online, and when our tweets start to turn into nothing but reiterating "I'm bored" in new and fancy ways over and over again, we have to get back to writing, and Writer's Block will still be there.
As I said before, it used to get me really down because I couldn't think of anything to write. But now I've realized, that's not true at all. I always have something in mind to write about. But the way my brain works is that I have to write everything in sequential order lest everything be thrown out of control.
I have learned to completely ignore my desire for order. The rest of my life runs on controlled chaos and it's worked great for me for the past 20 years. Why not just, apply it to my writing as well and then pull it all together like I do with the rest of my life?
This is probably the most brilliant thing I've ever done, which isn't saying much, but it pulls me out of my writer's block which is awesome. I simply skip ahead. What do I know I want to write about? What do I know is going to happen? What I can I write right now that is going to help me?
And I write that instead. Usually, after I've done that I've been able to think of what's going to happen before what I'd just written and then the block is gone.
It doesn't always work. Sometimes it just leads to more Writer's Block which will then lead to me over indulging in Oreos and Harry Potter fanfiction and, eventually, sleep. When my block is this severe I know that it's time to get up and walk away and do something productive. Most writers I know cringe at the thought of being productive, but eventually we have to put on pants and get some laundry done or do some dishes. Sometimes, Writer's Block is nothing more than your brain needing a break. And while our body's only impulse is to write until our we've rubbed off the letters from our keyboards, sometimes our brain says to us "look, Crazy Person, I'm not going to help you advance the plot until you make stop looking at this computer screen for a while."
The last technique I've developed for writer's block is eliminating distraction completely. This doesn't mean turning off my TV and getting off Twitter for a few hours, I have to leave my computer for a while, break out my purple binder and hand write my work. This, out of everything else, is what has proved to be the best thing I've ever done. It takes longer to hand write and my hand definitely cramps up when I do it, but I think without the temptation of the internet or solitaire, it's easier. Not only that, but I think because writing by hands takes longer, it also makes you think more because you have to take your time with every single word, whereas on my laptop, I can crank something out easily because my hands have memorized the keys and that makes it go by so much faster.
Writer's Block sucks. It totally sucks, but it's also challenging. My only desire in the whole world is to write and when I get blocked then I feel like a drug addict who can't get a fix. I just don't feel like I'm functioning unless I'm creating something with my words. The only way to get my fix is to find ways around Writer's Block so I can do what I need to do.
Fare thee well,
April
Writer's Block is my mortal enemy, but at the same time I bow to it.
I'll get to a scene where everything is going smoothly and suddenly, I'll hit a wall. Usually I sit there impatiently, trying to think of something--anything to write down. After about two hours I'll know that I'm suffering from a case of Writer's Block.
I used to get really down when I got Writer's Block. I imagined that anyone who'd actually sat down and written a book didn't suffer from it. Of course, I've now learned that ALL writer's suffer from it and that we all love to procrastinate as well.
But when we've gotten bored of playing Robot Unicorn and Tertris online, and when our tweets start to turn into nothing but reiterating "I'm bored" in new and fancy ways over and over again, we have to get back to writing, and Writer's Block will still be there.
As I said before, it used to get me really down because I couldn't think of anything to write. But now I've realized, that's not true at all. I always have something in mind to write about. But the way my brain works is that I have to write everything in sequential order lest everything be thrown out of control.
I have learned to completely ignore my desire for order. The rest of my life runs on controlled chaos and it's worked great for me for the past 20 years. Why not just, apply it to my writing as well and then pull it all together like I do with the rest of my life?
This is probably the most brilliant thing I've ever done, which isn't saying much, but it pulls me out of my writer's block which is awesome. I simply skip ahead. What do I know I want to write about? What do I know is going to happen? What I can I write right now that is going to help me?
And I write that instead. Usually, after I've done that I've been able to think of what's going to happen before what I'd just written and then the block is gone.
It doesn't always work. Sometimes it just leads to more Writer's Block which will then lead to me over indulging in Oreos and Harry Potter fanfiction and, eventually, sleep. When my block is this severe I know that it's time to get up and walk away and do something productive. Most writers I know cringe at the thought of being productive, but eventually we have to put on pants and get some laundry done or do some dishes. Sometimes, Writer's Block is nothing more than your brain needing a break. And while our body's only impulse is to write until our we've rubbed off the letters from our keyboards, sometimes our brain says to us "look, Crazy Person, I'm not going to help you advance the plot until you make stop looking at this computer screen for a while."
The last technique I've developed for writer's block is eliminating distraction completely. This doesn't mean turning off my TV and getting off Twitter for a few hours, I have to leave my computer for a while, break out my purple binder and hand write my work. This, out of everything else, is what has proved to be the best thing I've ever done. It takes longer to hand write and my hand definitely cramps up when I do it, but I think without the temptation of the internet or solitaire, it's easier. Not only that, but I think because writing by hands takes longer, it also makes you think more because you have to take your time with every single word, whereas on my laptop, I can crank something out easily because my hands have memorized the keys and that makes it go by so much faster.
Writer's Block sucks. It totally sucks, but it's also challenging. My only desire in the whole world is to write and when I get blocked then I feel like a drug addict who can't get a fix. I just don't feel like I'm functioning unless I'm creating something with my words. The only way to get my fix is to find ways around Writer's Block so I can do what I need to do.
Fare thee well,
April
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
I Think I Hate You Facebook
Greetings!
So, I'm irritated and the only way I know how to properly express anger is by writing it down or making my followers on Twitter mad with a series "CAPSLOCK APRIL" tweets which are annoying and probably take away from my irritation by irritating other people. And thus, I turn here.
Today, what irritates me is something that has irritated me for a while now: Facebook.
I liked Facebook for a while, then I moved to Twitter which basically completes my social networking soul. And I always went back to Facebook every day to see how friends are doing, post a status update maybe, perhaps I'd post something funny or cool I found on the internet. I was just as quiet and friendly on Facebook as I am in real life.
It has just now occurred to me, however, that if my reserved personality can show through on Facebook people who are obnoxious in real life can most certainly be obnoxious on Facebook too.
People who post the same status four times in a week make me want to slam my head against my desk repeatedly. I understand that maybe you really do love your life. Maybe you really are happy just doin' you, but if you're going to clog my feed with your repetitiveness and make me waste 10 seconds (that I could spend about BBC or CNN or HuffPo or The Onion or seeing what's new in Star Trek) for the love of Helga Hufflepuff, could you at least mix it up a little.
And another thing--why do people feel the need to put pointed statuses up on Facebook. For example: "I'm so over the Facebook drama. I didn't know we were still in high school, but it's okay. Go ahead and be childish. I'm on my own level" or something to that effect.(I've never had Facebook drama so excuse me if I'm not clear on how these ridiculous statuses are supposed to work.)
That's not just something you say in general. You are obviously talking about ONE person and you are obviously doing nothing but continuing the Facebook drama by making pointed comments.
What really, really, grinds my gears about Facebook is that people are exactly the same online as they are in real life, except BRAVER. I mean, pointed status updates are basically things you whisper to your friends behind other people's back. And you can put them on blast on Facebook , saying anything and everything you want about them WITHOUT using their name and when you see them IRL or if the pop-up chat you on Facebook you're going to be just as polite as possible even if you said 30 seconds ago that you were so over them and that you were going to be above the BS.
This leads me to one conclusion: I find people obnoxious in real life. If people are braver on the internet wouldn't it make them even MORE obnoxious? Facebook increases obnoxiousness dramatically. It increases stupid dramatically. It increases the amounts of face palms I do daily, dramatically.
And the obvious answer is to just delete all the stupid obnoxious people from your profile, from your life. But there are some people who you can't get rid of because that would leave to drama in your real life which you try desperately to avoid because no matter how much you love someone some people in your life are just annoying on the internet.
I'm sure people get tired of me always going on about Harry Potter on Facebook. I'm sure they think that's obnoxious, I'm sure they wish I would tone it down. I'm sure that in person they think "aw, April like Harry Potter. How cute." but on Facebook they feel like "If she posts about Deathly Hallows 2 again I will cut that bitch."
And if I can be obnoxious on the internet and adorable in real life then people can certainly be obnoxious online and just fine in real life.
But if you delete them on Facebook then obviously you have a problem with them because obviously Facebook is an accurate depiction of who your real friends are.
I know most people use Facebook to stalk people. I know you only friend some people so you can see their business and say "look at what this hoe is wearing. I always knew she was a skank. Let's look at her pictures and see how skanky she is."
But godforbid this person you don't even like deletes you. Then all of a sudden you're incredibly offended because how dare they dislike you.
I could keep going but I feel myself making less and less sense and understanding how much people and Facebook just annoy the crap out of me. Sometimes I just want to go on people's pages and post nasty Draco Malfoy type comments to shock them into shutting up.
But that is so not me. I feel guilty when I speak my mind about people making me upset. Like I have the balls to be nasty to people.
All though some day I really would like to use my favorite insult a la Sauruman from The Two Towers. "You stink of horse." That would be so boss.
*sigh*
To delete Facebook or not to delete Facebook. That is the question.
So, I'm irritated and the only way I know how to properly express anger is by writing it down or making my followers on Twitter mad with a series "CAPSLOCK APRIL" tweets which are annoying and probably take away from my irritation by irritating other people. And thus, I turn here.
Today, what irritates me is something that has irritated me for a while now: Facebook.
I liked Facebook for a while, then I moved to Twitter which basically completes my social networking soul. And I always went back to Facebook every day to see how friends are doing, post a status update maybe, perhaps I'd post something funny or cool I found on the internet. I was just as quiet and friendly on Facebook as I am in real life.
It has just now occurred to me, however, that if my reserved personality can show through on Facebook people who are obnoxious in real life can most certainly be obnoxious on Facebook too.
People who post the same status four times in a week make me want to slam my head against my desk repeatedly. I understand that maybe you really do love your life. Maybe you really are happy just doin' you, but if you're going to clog my feed with your repetitiveness and make me waste 10 seconds (that I could spend about BBC or CNN or HuffPo or The Onion or seeing what's new in Star Trek) for the love of Helga Hufflepuff, could you at least mix it up a little.
And another thing--why do people feel the need to put pointed statuses up on Facebook. For example: "I'm so over the Facebook drama. I didn't know we were still in high school, but it's okay. Go ahead and be childish. I'm on my own level" or something to that effect.(I've never had Facebook drama so excuse me if I'm not clear on how these ridiculous statuses are supposed to work.)
That's not just something you say in general. You are obviously talking about ONE person and you are obviously doing nothing but continuing the Facebook drama by making pointed comments.
What really, really, grinds my gears about Facebook is that people are exactly the same online as they are in real life, except BRAVER. I mean, pointed status updates are basically things you whisper to your friends behind other people's back. And you can put them on blast on Facebook , saying anything and everything you want about them WITHOUT using their name and when you see them IRL or if the pop-up chat you on Facebook you're going to be just as polite as possible even if you said 30 seconds ago that you were so over them and that you were going to be above the BS.
This leads me to one conclusion: I find people obnoxious in real life. If people are braver on the internet wouldn't it make them even MORE obnoxious? Facebook increases obnoxiousness dramatically. It increases stupid dramatically. It increases the amounts of face palms I do daily, dramatically.
And the obvious answer is to just delete all the stupid obnoxious people from your profile, from your life. But there are some people who you can't get rid of because that would leave to drama in your real life which you try desperately to avoid because no matter how much you love someone some people in your life are just annoying on the internet.
I'm sure people get tired of me always going on about Harry Potter on Facebook. I'm sure they think that's obnoxious, I'm sure they wish I would tone it down. I'm sure that in person they think "aw, April like Harry Potter. How cute." but on Facebook they feel like "If she posts about Deathly Hallows 2 again I will cut that bitch."
And if I can be obnoxious on the internet and adorable in real life then people can certainly be obnoxious online and just fine in real life.
But if you delete them on Facebook then obviously you have a problem with them because obviously Facebook is an accurate depiction of who your real friends are.
I know most people use Facebook to stalk people. I know you only friend some people so you can see their business and say "look at what this hoe is wearing. I always knew she was a skank. Let's look at her pictures and see how skanky she is."
But godforbid this person you don't even like deletes you. Then all of a sudden you're incredibly offended because how dare they dislike you.
I could keep going but I feel myself making less and less sense and understanding how much people and Facebook just annoy the crap out of me. Sometimes I just want to go on people's pages and post nasty Draco Malfoy type comments to shock them into shutting up.
But that is so not me. I feel guilty when I speak my mind about people making me upset. Like I have the balls to be nasty to people.
All though some day I really would like to use my favorite insult a la Sauruman from The Two Towers. "You stink of horse." That would be so boss.
*sigh*
To delete Facebook or not to delete Facebook. That is the question.
Monday, April 11, 2011
BDEA 11: It's Gettin' Hot In Hurr
Greetings!
Today is another one of those where I have nothing to talk about.
Target was not fun, again. Our scanners went down so I kept having to call people over the walkies to find stuff (or rather, tell me that we were out of things).
It's warm, which is nice but I'm hot because I'm wearing a hoodie because when I got to work I had to do a freezer pull (which is just stock for the feezer)and it was massive and I was cold. THen I never took the hoodie off. That was not smart.
My throat is sore. I'm drinking ghetto iced tea (Dairymens FTW) and eating popcorn for dinner.
I'll probably nom on some chewy cookies later.
A balanced diet.
Fare thee well,
April
Today is another one of those where I have nothing to talk about.
Target was not fun, again. Our scanners went down so I kept having to call people over the walkies to find stuff (or rather, tell me that we were out of things).
It's warm, which is nice but I'm hot because I'm wearing a hoodie because when I got to work I had to do a freezer pull (which is just stock for the feezer)and it was massive and I was cold. THen I never took the hoodie off. That was not smart.
My throat is sore. I'm drinking ghetto iced tea (Dairymens FTW) and eating popcorn for dinner.
I'll probably nom on some chewy cookies later.
A balanced diet.
Fare thee well,
April
Sunday, April 10, 2011
BEDA 10: Melting
Greetings!
This morning I woke up and it was hot as balls. Huzzah! The weather in bipolar Cleveland was finally starting to change in the right direction.
Yes! Warm weather!
Although I'm not the best at heat (it makes me weak) I was excited. Time to break out the shorts and the tank tops (except at Target where apparently I'll still be doomed to red and khaki pants.
So I get upstairs from sleeping in the basement and the house is, as always, melting.
But I sit down on the couch and prepare to wait Bait Car and then I smell something. A smelly sort of smell.
The smell that you smell when you turn the heat on in your house.
IT WAS 80 DEGREES AND SOMEONE HAD TURNED ON THE HEAT!
I did not understand. I still do not understand why, on the first hot day of summer, after staying here house sitting in the cold for three days THIS was the day that someone turned on the heat.
My brain was confused.
It was simple as turning the heat off and opening a few doors and blowing a fan to cool it down slightly, but still--it is hot as balls out here.
It is incredibly hot. But tomorrow it will be 60 and slowly the temperature will drop to the 40 again, just in time for me to turn 20. Boo!
Ah, the sun is setting. I can already feel it cooling down.
Time for me to relax...
Fare thee well,
April
This morning I woke up and it was hot as balls. Huzzah! The weather in bipolar Cleveland was finally starting to change in the right direction.
Yes! Warm weather!
Although I'm not the best at heat (it makes me weak) I was excited. Time to break out the shorts and the tank tops (except at Target where apparently I'll still be doomed to red and khaki pants.
So I get upstairs from sleeping in the basement and the house is, as always, melting.
But I sit down on the couch and prepare to wait Bait Car and then I smell something. A smelly sort of smell.
The smell that you smell when you turn the heat on in your house.
IT WAS 80 DEGREES AND SOMEONE HAD TURNED ON THE HEAT!
I did not understand. I still do not understand why, on the first hot day of summer, after staying here house sitting in the cold for three days THIS was the day that someone turned on the heat.
My brain was confused.
It was simple as turning the heat off and opening a few doors and blowing a fan to cool it down slightly, but still--it is hot as balls out here.
It is incredibly hot. But tomorrow it will be 60 and slowly the temperature will drop to the 40 again, just in time for me to turn 20. Boo!
Ah, the sun is setting. I can already feel it cooling down.
Time for me to relax...
Fare thee well,
April
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